Felt stuck and overwhelmed again…

I have a lot of interests, hobbies and obsessions. I have a lot of responsibilities. I have a lot going on in my head. Sometimes the noise is loudest when I’m sleeping (okay, to be honest, when I’m TRYING to sleep). For the past two or so years, my nightmares occasionally entertained me because they were so ridiculously silly and dumb. Other times I’m literally yelling and screaming myself awake from very disturbing and upsetting movie reels. Stress is real. Leftover lingering LOUD stress is real.

This month progressively got harder for all the states that make up my being. Just one simple task was overwhelming. This isn’t a pissing contest. My challenges and struggles matter. We’re not going to compare or decide who has it hardest in life. Whatever you are dealing with on a daily basis is unique and important, as are my problems. Just because someone isn’t overwhelmed with a specific life stress as someone else, doesn’t make it an easier life. As everyone does and should, I need to be mindful of what absolutely needs done, what I am actually able to do. and what I am able to control.

I follow a gazillion YouTube vloggers and channels. My favorite way to learn anything is to throw on How To videos on any topic. I prefer to have YouTube on rather than a TV show most days. The one that I had going on in the background today was My Carolina Garden. She has an explosion of plants and flowers, many of them are tropical ones that I grow at home. She talked about being overwhelmed at times and how to deal with that feeling when working in her garden, but it resonated with me on how to deal with life in general. What she said softly brushed against my skin like a loving touch…and slapped me awake.

“Little by little, a little becomes a lot.”

Life is a garden. Gardening means you believe in tomorrow. Let’s do this.